Yep. Here I am. Stop staring ( Read more... )

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I hate it when a blog post nails it. Like it KNOWS me. This HuffPo blog post nailed me, my depression, my mental illness, on the fucking head. This is how I feel, all of the time, if not most of the time, sometimes some of the time, if not at various times, then all the time. Reinforced by things which may or may not be actual reinforcements. When ( Read more... )

I lost a cat yesterday. This happens occasionally because when I rescue them from the euthanasia list at the shelter, you just never know what you're going to get. Kittens are difficult, because if they have no mom, you're already at a disadvantage, and summer strains of illness are lethal. So I did lose a kitten last week, but losing this adult ( Read more... )

Subject line, courtesy of Robb Stark ( Read more... )

I'm not really ready to talk about my health again just yet. I was feeling better, MUCH better for a bit there - nearly three months - and it was quite good. I didn't want to say too much because I knew it wouldn't last, and it didn't. So I guess the most I can say for now is that it's up and down. I've had some very good moments, where life seemed ( Read more... )

Taking another stab at the writing out how bad I feel thing... plus other stuff. Stuff! I need a new word.

( No, really, I don't need to have a life. )

There were a few weeks there, in December and January where I felt somewhat normal for lack of a better word to describe being able to get out of bed and leave the house and carry on conversations and eat food and stuff. Well. That's over. I don't know what caused the boost and hey, surprise, all the head doctors are stumped. But I am back in the ( Read more... )

I'm supposed to go to a Halloween party tonight and I won't know everyone, but they are Broadway/actor types so it could either be really fascinating or terribly horrible. Plus I have no costume and it's required. I need to go around the corner and buy a nice wig and maybe a flapper cap and then I can wear my swingy black dress, fishnets and ( Read more... )

Sort of an update: I felt awful. I took Lithium. I felt better. I felt awful again. I can't even describe what that week or so of feeling good was like. It wasn't even feeling GOOD per se, just feeling normal. What a rush to be walking down the street and feeling nothing. Just feeling like, "hey, I'm walking down the street and ain't the weather ( Read more... )